It has been a whirlwind 48 hours. And it isn’t over yet. On Friday, April 28, I received a phone call at 4:00pm from Children and Youth. We have officially been assigned a case worker (YAY!). Our case worker was calling to let us know that our file has been assigned to her and we are ready to have our first home study. Internally, I was assuming we would have our home study scheduled sometime between 4 – 6 weeks after being assigned a case worker. I. Was. Wrong.
Here I sit, almost 8:00pm on Sunday evening, surrounded by chaos. Our case worker is coming out tomorrow, at 2:30pm, to conduct our first home study. Justin and I immediately changed our plans for this weekend and focused on getting our spare bedroom set up. And doing about a million other odds and ends around the house that probably did not need to be done, but, ya know.
We are excited, nervous, apprehensive, yadda, yadda, yadda. Currently though, we are too tired to think. We started this journey 6 months ago. Since we embarked down this road, we have celebrated holidays, birthdays, moved to a new home, added a puppy to our family, and who knows what else. Like I said, currently too tired to think. It seems surreal that we are finally at one of the last checkpoints. We are expecting a minimum of one more home study, possibly two more. We still are not at the finish line, but it is within arms reach.
I have high hopes for tomorrow, coupled with, what I believe to be, fairly realistic expectations. Neither Justin nor I have ever done something like this before; we are not quite sure what to expect, but we have asked family that have walked this path ahead of us and done some quick research. We are expecting to be asked many questions regarding our personal relationship as spouses, our relationship as parents, morals and values, etc. Justin and I are looking at tomorrow as a growing experience, a unique opportunity to discuss on an extremely personal level our belief systems as individuals and as a couple, and the chance to ask more detailed questions about where we are headed.
At 2:30pm tomorrow, please think of us and P. Send up a prayer. As we have set up our spare bedroom with a crib, toys, books, and a toddler bed, we have been flooded with a multitude of emotions. It has been a rollercoaster of a weekend. We knew it would be one crazy ride when we signed up for this. We would not want it any other way. The hardest work is ahead of us, we can only assume how hard it will get. But the harder the work, the greater the rewards. Those rewards may not always be evident, they may not be shiny and bright, but they will always be there. Please remind us of that.
And so it goes…